embrace myself

I used to sit around and care too much about what you thought about me 

whether you like me or not

But I never thought about whether I already loved myself

I made decisions based on fears 

I invited hurt and disappointment 

Today I refuse to live that way 

I don’t care if people actually look at my tumblr

knowing no one reads it makes it easier to speak my mind

I used to waste energy looking perfect now I try to accept my flaws 

to hold them in loving kindness

I used to tell other people what i thought they wanted to hear

All the energy I put into judgement consumed so much of my time

Time that today I put to better use

I don’t live in a place of unworthiness

I take risks more often than I used to

When that fear comes crawling back up

 I don't let it determine my destination

remind myself it is part of the process 

allowing fear to be turned into courage 

the act of walking through it - transformative.